It is an imperfect heart

As I was reading through my blogs, I thought to myself, "Wow, I would really like to be like this person."
It occurred to me that when we write about ourselves we have a habit of putting down our good thoughts and people get the idea that we really have it all together. I only wish!! If everyone knew what goes through my head sometimes they would probably be appalled.
I have at times had terrible thoughts about people, been angry over stupid things, whined and had pity parties. Felt far from God, been depressed, been lazy, ignored people I shouldn't have, said spiteful things and the list goes on and on.
Guess what? That is okay if everyone knows that. I want God to be glorified, not me. God is doing a work in me that will take the rest of my life. Seriously, we all want people to think the best of us. I don't think of myself as a bad person until I look deeper and see the pride and yes sometimes self-righteousness, the one thing I hate in other people. I hate it in myself too. It is not that I think I am better than others it is just sometimes I think I am better than I really am.
But if we get insights on things and don't share them we are wasting our experiences and knowledge. Maybe we can help to make the path a little easier for the next person.
So I also need to tell myself the next time I read someone else's blog that I admire,that God is doing a work in them too, and it is so beautiful to see!!!