Why am I here?

Such a generic question. Is it why am I here in the world, or why am I here in Missouri?

 Yes and no. It is more than that. Why did God put me HERE?

Right here. What is His plan for me? What is it He wants me to do HERE?

I do want to do His will, what is it? When do we know that it is His will, or ours?

It can be both. When we tune in to God's word we can know what is not His will.

 But we have to tune in, read, contemplate, study, meditate on.

 Not just read books about His word, but read His word.

No one said that being a Christian is easy. You don't just say "I believe" then float along.

I guess that would mean that you don't really believe.

changes

Do you like changes? I do, some of them anyway. I get bored pretty easily. I can't just sit and watch TV. I

have to either be on the computer or doing a crossword puzzle or maybe sudoku. But changes are scary too.

New jobs, new people, new places. Years ago that would petrify me. Now I love it. New jobs give me a

 challenge to satisfy my boredom. New people give me an opportunity to make new friends or maybe be a

 help or comfort. New places give me a sense of adventure and the thrill of discovery. Why was I ever

scared of such wonder and life?

Spring

Love...love...love...spring. New life...blooms...croaking frogs...singing birds...life rejoices!

Spring is to be shared, enjoyed, relished. It will all too soon be too hot and too dry to have the same magic

that spring holds. I wish I had my grandchildren here to discover this new beginning again with me. I love my

home, just that I love my family more.

It is really rough being a parent. I use to think that and now that my family is raised I look back and think it really wasn't all that bad. Sure there were some rough patches and heartbreak, but all in all it was a joy and privilege. Now the rough part is dealing with aging parents. No one ever told me that. Most people think you just put them in a nursing home and you have done your part. Visit them from time to time and that makes you a good person. Think about it though...is that what you want for your life? Do you want to turn a certain age and let your children make all your decicions for the rest of your life? Even if they love you that doesn't mean that they will do what is best for you, but what is easiest for them. What has happened to families. Are we not suppose to take care of them if we can? Sure there are exceptions. If at all possible I want my parents to have the kind of life that they want. If they make bad decisions then let them as long as it doesn't endanger anyone else.
God allows us to make bad and wrong decisions. I just weep for the love that is lost when one grows older.